All the stars in the heavens shine for you

I spent some time yesterday people watching. Just found a nice spot down on Cannery Row and sat back, with the sun shining down and the sounds of sea birds and surf providing the soundtrack, and just watched. Watched as a mother held the hand of her child who was not quite ready to walk alone, as a group of friends decided which restaurant to eat lunch at, as an older couple slowly walked hand in hand while others passed them and smiled.

Too often we go about our lives with little thought to what or who else is out there. And then tragedy strikes, and we’re reminded that not all is as picturesque as a day by the ocean, people watching. It’s the awful things, like the horrible events in Paris, that make my heart hurt. That made me want to stay home, where I would be ‘safe’. The thought that there are people who prey on the innocent to make a dramatic statement or to foster terror, is not a new one. Just one that seems to fade away as time passes. Until the next time, then it all comes rushing back. And that IS terrifying. Though to not go on living, as heartless as it may seem to continue on, that’s just another way the terrorists win. So we live, but we don’t forget.

My thoughts and prayers are with those who have lost someone and those coping with the aftermath of fear. Know that you have the support of a world united with you.

The only thing I’ll ever ask of you

Today is the first day of Autumn. (For those of us in the Northern Hemisphere anyways.) There were several times that I thought about starting up my blogging again and as this day approached I thought – why not? Autumn is my favorite season of all, though I usually refer to it as “Fall”. (And no, the rhyme there was not intentional.)

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Sometimes We Are All Like Stars, We Have to Fall to Make Someone’s Wish Come True

Of all the things I’ve believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I’ve been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I’m hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I’m starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to…

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“When in doubt, go for the dick joke.”


Have you ever been asked that dinner party question? You know the one – if you could have any 10 people come to your house for a dinner party, who would you invite?

Robin Williams was one of those unique individuals that seemed to be able to conquer anything, play any role, and do it all while making people laugh. I can’t pick just a single role he played that I could say is my absolute favorite. He played so many memorable characters – from an alien from another planet (Mork & Mindy) to a cross-dressing nanny intent on spending as much time with his children as possible (Mrs. Doubtfire). From a psychologist helping a troubled genius (Good Will Hunting) to a comedic, wish granting cartoon genie (Aladdin), and so many, many more.

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Never Give All the Heart

It’s been ages since I wrote a blog post. And what I’ve written below is nothing like any of the previous posts I have done. I wrote this, on my phone, while sitting on a bench overlooking the bay where I live, waiting for the sun to come up. I’d been up for near 36 hours straight and had more alcohol than I would usually have had in one night, actually more than in a month. I had intended to write an email and it became more of a journal entry. I’ve only edited misspelled and missing words, otherwise this is me – uncensored, at least in that hour or so that I sat writing this. I debated actually posting this, because honestly it seems sort of juvenile. Then I recognized that was me caring about what other people think of me. That I’d written this to help me work towards figuring out a confusing situation and that maybe it would be helpful to others who have had or could have the same experience to not feel alone in their thoughts. So given that disclaimer, chose to read or don’t. It is entirely up to you.

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